Fri, 15th December, 2017 ~ 8:30 am

Pixel thingiemajigs

I have been having so much fun over at Secret Vanilla Patch. It’s been so long since I wanted to draw. It’s been so long since my muse decided to cooperate. It’s so nice to see some of the same people I met so long ago. They inspired me so much when I started dolling and pixeling. I actually started going through my old folders looking at stuff I had made… laughing at how bad some of it was… but smiling because we all have to start somewhere. Happy memories. I really don’t have a lot to say today, I am just happy to have a content day with my nose stuck in PSP.

Hope you are having a nice day too!

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Hello creatures, just wanted to pop in an give my fellow pixel nerds a heads up that Jo reopened The Secret Vanilla Patch. So if you were a member before or just want to come jabber with other pixel artists, come check it out! Hope to see you there. Click the button below (not a referral).

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Summer is here

I think winter forgot us down here in the desert. Either that or it happened somewhere between Feb 6-8 on the one day it rained. We are back to triple digits already and have been for a month. That’s ok, more time in the pool for me. It’s good for my butt.

Well my son who was in boarding school managed to get himself expelled so he is back home with us. He was leaving the campus and when he came back he was carving bad words into cars, breaking windows, etc. It initially created quite a bit of chaos because I got a call and they said come get him in 24 hours or we are pressing charges. Sounds simple enough but the school is 650 miles away. So I yanked the other kids out of school and drove to get him.

It’s been frustrating because he is just a very defiant young man. He wants to be lazy all the time and still have all of the perks of someone who tries their hardest. He is only 15 so we have 3 more years of this which sounds exhausting. He is very smart intellectually but chooses to not invest himself in school or family. I keep reminding myself that life has a way of teaching us all those lessons. Lessons to try our hardest to get the best reward. Laziness doesn’t pay off. I am learning the very hard lesson of patience. Not just patience, extreme patience. It’s hard to watch someone make bad decisions over and over again when you can see the outcome ahead of time. Sometimes people just have to learn for themselves.

In other news my other 3 are doing well. Everyone caught a cold but that passed pretty quick.

So how is everyone out in cyberland? Hopefully surviving the heat. Thanks for stopping by!

Things are looking up

I am sorry it has been a couple of months since I last update, especially  after my last post. So now for updates.

My husband got a job in March. It is at a local hotel that is VERY busy so he is working long hours. I am thankful he is willing to put in those kind of hours for me and the kids. He is a good hub and takes good care of us. 🙂

My second son is still at his boarding school. He had some more bumpy patches with running away and stuff but is doing better now. The good news is that he is safe and he has no F’s in any of his classes. That doesn’t sound like much but he has most of his grades at C’s and I haven’t seen that since about 4th grade. So YAY!

Hub managed to fix my van. He had to hand craft a whole new wiring harness for the fuel system because purchasing one was a two month wait and a huge cost. Thank goodness for YouTube and the internet. There were so many wonderful people with helpful advice so we could actually do it. My van is currently in the body shop getting a new back gate because a guy smashed into it at a red light. The good news is that his insurance covered it all.

So for any of you out there who are struggling… if your life is too much… too hard or you feel like you are drowning in bad circumstances like I did, please don’t give up hope. It takes time but I promise you, things work themselves out. If your life is going great, please take the time to look around you because a friend or family member may be struggling more than you think. Be their lifesaver by lending a hug and a smile. I was at the point of crying myself to sleep each night, having chest pains and feeling hopeless. I also want to thank you guys who emailed, called, commented, etc. Even if I didn’t speak to you directly, I read each one and I love you for taking the time to send comfort. I really needed it. You guys are the best. Thanks for the life preserver Kimi. 🙂

In a daze…

I have to apologize to everyone who has been by here the past few months only to see no updates. My life has taken quite a few unexpected turns. So let me update you now…

My husband was a Director of Engineering at a local hotel here.  Last August the hotel was bought out by another company and they wiped out all of the current management, including my hub. He hadn’t had a vacation in a really long time so we decided it would be nice for him to rest and relax for a month or so. We got the vacation and then some. Almost 6 months later he is still out of work despite us job hunting every single day and applying for lots of jobs. He is well qualified for his job but there just aren’t that many good jobs opening up.

While this was all going on my second oldest son started getting into trouble. He started ditching high school, hanging out with the troubled kids, getting nasty and violent at home. This came to a pinnacle when he ran away during school and I didn’t find him for 5 days. He made sure to run away exactly on my 40th birthday. When I did find him he was at a house that was full of high teenagers and a mom who was clearly an addict herself. I was terrified. My hub and I lead a very clean lifestyle to try and be a good example for our children. With some help from family I managed to get my son into a private school far away from where we live. It is a beautiful school on top of a mountain without distractions. No crap is tolerated there. While I am relieved and thankful that he is safe and progressing in a positive way, we all miss him.

Fast forward to November. My minivan starts acting funny so my hub told me to drive his car for a few days while we fix the van. While driving with my daughter past the elementary school a teacher made an illegal left turn right into me. It totaled my husband’s car and banged up my daughter and I. The airbags went off and smashed her really hard in the face. We are okay but it was really scary. It was a very old ugly Tercel but it ran great. It was always our back up car. With the backup car gone I went back to my van. Over the past couple of months we have made minor fixes to the van to keep it running. My husband has been working on it as money comes in from unemployment to try and fix it. It is currently completely out of commission and I have a rental car until Friday. Not sure what to do after that. Our savings is gone.

I just feel like the snowball of bad luck has really run my family over.  I would ask what else could go wrong except that I feel at this time it would be tempting fate. Have you ever felt like you were drowning? Have you ever felt like you just couldn’t get control of your life? That is where I am.  As I write this I realize probably no one will read it but I had to write it anyway. I just needed to tell someone.